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Whole day I slack at home, then i also called and talk to my Laopo... Its her bday today... HAPPY BDAY LAOPO!! <3
Ok, to clear the air, my laopo is my gan laopo.. NOT GF!! Dun anyhow...
Alot of times, though I actually wished those girls I like is my GF, but ya, they aint... so ya... Accept this fact for me k?
Saw Shifu just now while on the phone with laopo and cycling... She was shock to see me.. Think cos I look damn different.. But think, more of didnt expect me to see her? I dunno.. Somehow, I think she is avoiding me.. Tagged her blog only reply "oO" to me, sms no reply, call no answer (though she seldom answer unless we are meeting), MSN ALSO NO REPLY.. To me, I assume its ignoring.. Though just now I waved at her, she waved back luhh.. At least not so dao....
I REALLY MISS SHIFU... Thank God for allowing me to see her...
Most people in my God Family is IMPORTANT to me, but yet, they don't think I am as important... They just start to ignore me and disown me like its such an easy thing to do... Well, it is... But the fact that me not even WORTH A THING makes me damn sad..
I cried alot of times when people leave my God Family... And I did cry for my Gan NuEr (goddaughter) and my shifu... I really dun wan lose them... I really dun want them to leave my circle of friends.. They are important people.. I dont understand.. We were so close last time, why everything change in just a flick of a finger?
Why do people change hearts so easily? Why do people treat friends like JUNK? Friends are people u spend ur life with... Though its mostly ever changing, and that people always believe there is NO FOREVER FRIENDS, but I personally think that we should all take the effort to treasure EVERY FRIEND we have... Because they are those who made ur life colourful.. They are those that surround you, cheer u up, have fun with u etc...
Its not about much much money or time spent on them that I am sad about, but it is seriously the memories that will never fade... They are, as far as I have lived, still fresh in my mind... They are those people that I wanna spend my life having fun with... And I mean having fun... I dont wanna just lose friends like that....
You can say that I am a weakling, and the world has so many people, why must I feel sad about one person leaving? But to me, EVERYONE MATTERS... Losing a friend is like losing the world..
As what a popular saying says: You might be one person in the world to you, but to that person you are the world! And I am serious... Being with different friends, I am living in a different world.. I act differently, speak differently, play differently, treat them differently.. They are all different worlds to me... To me, they are a world of a whole new fun~
So why? Why do the closest people around me leave me just like that? Do I not worth even a single shit to them?
I am not trying to be emo here, but I just wanna say, EVERYONE OF YOU READING THIS MATTERS!! You are my friend, and you are my world.. You are the dearest person I ever had..
Shifu, if you reading this, I really hope to be close to u again.. Cos you are the bestest best girl-friend I had... There is ABSOLUTELY NO GIRL that can replace you as my shifu.. Cos you are more lame than me, cos you are cute, cos you are the one and only RINKO in this world! Though you are not my girlfriend, and most probably won't agree to be mine, but you ARE the BEST GIRL-FRIEND I EVER HAD.. The closest and the one that I trust and love... I really hope we can be like last time...
I dun wanna lose anymore friends, especially close ones like shifu... Its bad enough my love life is sucky, I dun wan my friendship to end up the same...
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Now I actually understands why so many people prefer not to be loyal... Cos its so hard.. So hard to let go when the other party isn't... This includes Friends, BGR, etc... I just wan a bunch of friends that I can be super close to... But people just keep leaving me like I am a worthless piece of shit..
I don't need love... I just want loyal friends, and I am satisfied..
