不管我将来可以不可以打动你的心，不管你将来会不会爱我，我要改变我自己。让自己变成一个很多女生都想要的男生。我要实现我梦想，我要赚钱，我要改照我的型象！
Lazy type chinese... Anyways~
I dun care if I become a basturd like those I hate in the past, I want to be someone successful, powerful, rich, and perhaps better looking than now.. Even if I have to use low-down methods to make it possible, I WANT TO CHANGE!!
I want to change to someone who people will want to know me, want to be with me, even if its just for my money or looks. I fuck care already! What's the point of staying like now, a useless idiot who always help ppl, when after that, no one even looks at me in the eyes? For what I gave so much to the world and I get nothing back?
I dun mind if there is no direct return, but nth have been well for me now! I helped ppl, I gave ppl encouragement, I try to give ppl hope, I try to be there for ppl... But after I done that, I felt happy for a moment.. So what? They dun even look at me after all these.. I lose friends.. I lose people I can rely on.. I lose ppl I trust.. People so important to me, that I must go through all these trouble to help.. They just turn around and walk away.. Some, even bite me saying I made them feel worse..
I just wanna help.. I just wan them to feel better.. I just want them to know, THE WORLD IS NOT THE END, just because I am here if they need me!! So, when they dun need me, I dun exist.. WTF!
Fine.. I shall not be there from now on.. I am fucking lazy to care so much.. I am a busybody!!
I won't be online for a long time.. Even if I am, most probably during weekends.. ONLY THOSE WHO BOTHER CONTACTING ME, WILL KNOW I AM STILL ALIVE!! Or else, take me as a dead person, out of this world already! Need me, contact me.. Lazy contact me, then TOO BAD!
I am on Off days since Wednesday, till next Tuesday.. But it doesn't feel like an off day at all.. Jio ppl go out, all throw paper planes at me.. FINE! I shall spend my rest of the Off Days, PLANNING FOR MY FUTURE! MY DREAMS! Fuck Friends! Fuck going out! Fuck Enjoyment! FUCK FUN!
I will be staying in Camp From Sundays to Fridays cos of ARMY.. ALL I WANT IS TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU GUYS cos of my limited freedom soon.. No one bothers.. No one cares.. FUCK IT! U dun wan me, I also dun bother! It's not my loss!!! You people will regret!
*PS: I just wanna love someone, be stable in relationship, live my life with that person, make that person happy even by doing the silliest thing on earth.. I just wanna love you more, IS THAT WRONG?!
