I saw her blog... And I agree, I cant be dylan.. I am Cun Xi!! Cos me and him kinda alike... I admit it isn't the first time I said I love you, and it isn't the first time I moved on to other girl and back to u... I know I seem like a flirt, like someone u cant trust... I broke ur trust not just once.. It's countless..
It doesn't matter if you don't have feelings for me... All I know is, if I dun try to jio u now, I'll regret in future... This time, I will not change... I know you won't believe, but its ok.. =D
ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!! No more saying... Do it, Mr FeRdy!! =D
Saw her today.. Believe it or not, it wasn't planned, neither did i purposely waited.. I took bus 18 from Tampines Interchange... The bus was FREAKING SLOW CANS!! Then when reach her house downstairs, I saw bus 21.. Btw, I didn't take 18 cos I wanna see her, cos IT CAME FIRST!! Dun anyhow.. I planned nth.. Fate planned it.. Anyways, I saw 21, then I was like walking slowly.. Then I thought to myself.. She won't be on this bus.. I walked a little faster and looked back again, I saw the bus moved off and SHE WAS CROSSING THE ROAD!! WTF... Idk I should hide or run or stand still... In the end, she saw me.. We exchanged smiles, and then I said hi... Then we chat alittle while waiting for her lift... And then we went separate ways..
I always believe in Fate.. But this is the first time that I met her while we still contacting... Everytime while we are contacting or when we are close, I dun see her on the streets.. but when we stop contacting for awhile, then I see her.. Like fate is playing with me... Today, this is fate... I didnt know her sch ends wad time, she dunno I half day... PLUS, she actually wanna go TM with friend to buy bday present, but she decided to go home study... It really looks like fate to me.. Idk about you...
Maybe I think too much? But I'll think positive... I'll say, this is telling me, my most recent decision is right! I CANNOT GIVE UP!! Last time I have no confidence to jio her, so once she reject me, few months or even weeks later, I jio-ing another girl... Trying to run away from my feelings towards her... I wanna give up on her, cos I no confidence...
This time, I dun care about possibilities, I dun care about confidence.. I only trust Fate, and most of all, the heart that counts.. Fate only allows people to meet and know one another, but its the hardwork, the heart, that makes 2 person possible... I don't believe I am unable to touch her heart... 3 yrs of doing nth is coming to an end!! I'll jio her, till she finds me so irritating... I dun believe we are not possible.. Nothing is impossible without trying.. Possibility is too easy to estimate without trying.. Last time ppl say its impossible for humans to fly.. Now we have aeroplanes..
I WILL TRY MY BEST.. Till the day u accept me, or the day u get married.. Even if I end up like Dylan, who can only watch u get married, giving u all ur blessings, I don't mind... Cos I love you..
