I am now cycling outside.. Now sitting at the same pavilion as I sat 2 years back.. Remember we were eating shark fin soup we bought from the interchange..
Looking at the playground reminds me of another time when u didn't wanna be home early, so we sat on the playground and talk, abt ur ex, john, and ur bestie..
Now the playground renovated, memories r gone, but they still remains in my mind.. They seems so close, yet it's 2 years ago..
Why am I still living in the past? Why am I still so deeply in love with u? Why do I still think about all these? Is it just a habit that we used to meet every Friday? Or is it that I am really so deeply in love with u?
My army friends says that u look more like my gf than just a good friend I had when they somehow saw our old pictures.. I am happy.. Is this the feeling of happiness when the world thinks we r together even if we ain't?
Looking at those same Picts, we seems so close, but yet so far.. Somehow, I keep having this feeling u n I don't look compatible at all.. But why do I love u so much?
Somehow, I wanna move on! I wanna love someone else! I wanna run away from what that does not belong to me! I JUST DONT WANNA LOVE U ANYMORE! Cos as u said, we r impossible! And I don't wanna lose u! Not even just as a friend, but I just can't stop thinking abt the past, because u made up the majority of my memories in the past! There r far too many to let go of! And I am someone who don't let go of memories easily.. I still can remember so much about us.. How we met, where we first met, wad we did, the fish and co treat, the badminton game, the macdonald studies, the times we went shopping, the way u encouraged me to try out para cos I am interested but don't have the courage, the movies, the chats... Alot more! And I just can't throw them away.. My trash bin is full in my memory..
I... I just can't.. Let u go~
Somebody save me!!
